My face, relaxed & thinking back…
Working through the 2016 Shining Year in Life, closing the year 2015 with ceremony & reflection.
When I think of 2015, I immediately think of:
Poetry, projects, pain, plans, pregnancy, paramour, course-correction.
Dreams which came true:
Lots of writing & photos clicked, new creative outlets found
Beautiful lessons learned:
Revealing is beautiful, raw is glorious, truth is painful & freeing, love is sacrifice
I know myself more now because I turned the camera on me & my life & I wrote from my heart.
I was transformed this year by passion, desire, dreams (sough & shattered), boundaries & soul stretched.
I was really hard to go through, I know I learned a lot from Him, grace, forgiveness, watching the Gentlemen grow.
I let go of my mom still (not) mothering, even more expectations, so much online personas, C&S Life (& .com). Surrendered pieces & parts of my heart which needed to be shed. Unfolded many layers of hurt, deep seated non-working beliefs & love. So much love.
I am joy-full because of new & fresh perspectives, sunshine, the Gentlemen, flowers, inspiration every present & changing
I discovered the incredible amount of love I truly have within, which needs to be shared, how creative & unique I am, how well I can flip hurt & grow
I was led to more creative, expressive & freeing writing as well as feeling more connected to my heart’s desires.
I am proud of myself for doing (some of) the hard things, forgiving again & again (myself included), seeing my ugly, yet loving me anyways and continuing to recover from perfectionism & expectation overload.
And now, I long for someone to be for me. Just me. My cheerleader. My friend. My mentor.
Maybe I am the woman for the job.